pain and doing nothing

Above is just a little tidbit of all that is beautiful and good. I love them both- but honestly- I love Julie Andrews so much more.

So I had a mouth/tmj surgery and I am in real pain- but that is hopefully not what I will focus on right now.

I am listening to Pandora, which I never do, but my current station is a mix of Keep the Car Running and Dance Anthem of the 80s. Its pretty good.

I wrote a little list yesterday when I was sitting in Le Pain Quotidien waiting for my food with nothing to do. I wrote it on the back of a receipt because thats all I had there.

This is my list of topics I, at the time, thought I wanted to write about:

Mud Coffee
Pain QUotidien
peanut butter (?)
olives
my new brand of feminism
this week of relaxation (and now: pain)
I <3 NY
differences to live in NY
numerology
religion/trinity (i got into that before, but not the trinity)
crust (on bread)
Nigella
fame. and it's horrors
radishes from theReluctant Dragon


I just watched Enchanted with my Dad. It was good. It was before my pain medication/numbness had worn of. Oof Oof ooofofofofofooooof.

They gave me narcotics but I'm scared!!!! I don't want to see the devil or throw up or whatever.


Ok I'm going to write about NY.

So, I kind of had a mini love affair with beautiful NYC the day before I left to come home. I had nothing to do but run around and get rXs and eat out by myself and - buy flip flops or whatever.

It is so beautiful. It is the most amazing place in the world. I knwo that I love Ireland, and I love love love france, and I want to travel so much more. But there is no place like Manhattan- and I have taken it or granted since the first week of freshman year. But I took it for granted in all the wrong ways. I just saw what I had to do. I had tasks. I had classes. I had fear of my health and an obsession with my weight and skin and I didn't take a thing in. I took NOTHING in my freshman year. I may as well have just gone to school in a secluded little podunk town because I didn't do a thing.

My first year I lived in Union Square, which is prime real estate, and I had a WHole Foods right outside my doorstep. Everything was at my fingertips. Its right next to Gramercy