Nothingness Day 6- advil

This is what my Ticker Looks Like  .When I actually use it. Which I seem to NOT do anymore.

I did my fake bed meditation today again, which might not prove to be the best. For some reason my mind runs all over the place. Some of the more common thoughts I tried to watch today were:

I need advil

Oh- thats a great idea for a blog!!

I wonder if I'll sneeze?

I wonder if I set my alarm correctly?

Turns out I did NOT set my alarm correctly- and in the end, about 7 minutes after it would have been over I thought

I really hope this is over soon

This CAN'T be right...

I am going to check

And sure enough!

Also, I did sneeze again, at two different times, and it without fail made me still and feel the 'space'. I even tried to imagine what my body feels like after sneezing to kind of jump-start my zen. It half worked.

Also, at the end (when it was already pat 15 minutes but I didn't know) I just stretched like a squiggly worm in my bed- which then gave me a good minute or two of calm and stillness before I thought
This is ABSURD. I AM CHECKING THE CLOCK.

So I guess my mind goes in spurts of peacefulness and agitation. "Oh well."